Autumn 2025.


13 September.
It's autumn, my favourite time of the year.
The heatwaves are over and it's starting to get chilly.
Things are ok right now. The new job is good.
They referred on the thesis too, so that's sorted as well.
Sadly I'm having a hard time finding a new place.
Still, I am enjoying living here.
This city has started feeling close to me.
It's the first thing I would feel like calling home.
Busy week ahead, so I'm going to relax this weekend.

14 September.
A stressful Sunday.
Wanted to do laundry, but the machine broke.
Tried to do washing, then the sink clogged.
Can't have cheese on toast for breakfast, because no bread.
Fuck it. Just slept all day instead.

15 September.
Super stressful Monday. IT login problems again.
Trainer had no idea that I had started so had to teach on the fly.
Ran out of gas and electric again.
Then went to primark to buy a bag, surprise surprise they had moved it.
Got my hair cut which is always a drag, especially hairdressers who won't shut up.
Went to the pharmacist to pick up my prescription and they'd closed.
Luckily one down the road was still open.
Still got a lovely stack of ironing to do.
And tried consolidating my pensions too. That was NOT fun.
Jesus can I get a break here!

18 September.
Keeping up with work,
Went to see another place yesterday.
Looked great on paper, turned out to be another slum.
625 too, not cheap.
This guarantee shit is driving me up the wall.

September 30th.
The month has passed by quickly.
Has work made things speed by?
The holidays are coming up already.
I feel lonely.

2 October.
B has been a real piece of shit to deal with.
I wonder if it's best to go to another university.

5 October.
Weekend was boring but stressfree.
Picked up a cold.
Gona eat a pizza and crash.

9 October.
The days have got dark quickly.
Summer switched off like a light.
I'm not complaining.

15 October.
I will not forget how hard I fought for the chance for this degree.
Watching it burn due to no fault of my own is all kinds of bad.
All I can do is accept the inevitable.
Thankfully there are top up courses. This will determine my trajectory in 2026.
Still, this could have been dealt with, if anyone had given a fuck.
I suppose that will always be too much for people to ask.
It harms them too, but I can't save the fucking world.
So, back to the drawing board, more research to do.
And you know, I got my finance admin job and place in the end,
But I would have traded it.

16 October.
It's surprising how fast the Autumn has gone past.
Soon, it'll be Winter.
I worked hard at work today.
Put down the funds for the new place, too.
The flat I really wanted suddenly said it was still on the market.
But he was like, "Not sure when I'm around next, or if we want a guarantor .."
Finding a good place here was hard. Finding ANY place was hard.
Anyway, next time, I'll buy.

19 October.
As the year draws down,
I look forward to another one without graduation.
Once again, it wasn't for lack of effort or responsibility
Just plain lack of resources.
They keep trying to string me along when the show couldn't be more over.
Why does it have to be like this?
How come it's always so hard?
What's wrong with getting an education.

20 October.
My last week here.
Feels a little scary.
And I feel a little sad.
Even though it's a dump.
And anyway, leaving has been way overdue.




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