Spring 2025.


June 3.
It's summer.

June 6.
Interviews haven't gone well.
The one on Wednesday was out of reach.
The first one today wasn't part time, and the second was some marketing crap.
My best leads are these MOJ case handler jobs, but my god the tests ..!
At least I got to go out looking smart today.
And the experience of being interviewed was important too.

June 19.
Everything has been pretty balls lately.
Little luck with work apart from the local government and my old employer.
Though they are safe bets the number of assessments they put you through is gruelling.
Then the course. My fucking supervisor wants me to rewrite my question!
He got it last month, why not tell me then ?? Outrageous !!
And I've not been taking the best physical care of myself.
Just need to chill out pull myself together and sort this.

June 24.
Weather is milder thankfully. The last few days have been hot.
Going to have to work full time through this research project now.
That's good for money, but B. is so slow coming back to me.
If only he would just nail my research question so it can be sorted.
Oh, went to a seminar to join the police. That was funny.
I think, working for the cops, it's a very disciplined job.

June 28.
The job interview went well, at least I think.
I was a little sluggish and bombed a few questions. Overall though it was good.
Hope they give the job. The hours would be awesome.
Anything is better than all this shift work.
The weather's been surprisingly cool for summer.
Oh, and my supervisor finally has my ethics forms.
Took them long enough to approve my question. MAYBE I'll make it in time .. !

July 10.
Nothing's really going well.
Trying to find a job, and it's hard enough getting some crappy call centre work.
Way behind on the thesis, stuck on the beginning sections, no ethical approval.
I feel like shit. All I do is drink and sleep and bust my ass.
Just another day in this pig shit life.

July 11.
Felt so much better yesterday after going to the gym. Really needed that.
The interview today went well too. Seemed to make a good impression overall.
Did turn up sweating like a pig, but it is the middle of July.
If that doesn't work out, there's other things. Hoping to have an offer soon.

July 17.
Still no job, still behind on the thesis, but things are picking up with progress and interviews.
Life has become all online..
I hardly speak to anyone, everything resolves around a computer.

July 19.
Yesterday was the easiest job interview of my life.
Guy seemed ready to hire me on the spot.
On the negative, it's back to the old FM game.
Hopefully this will only last a year or so.

July 22.
They gave me the job yesterday. The pay's good.
Got in touch with Debbie. She was lovely and supportive about it.
And she was shocked to learn about Abbie's dumping fun and games.
Made me feel vindicated, though I never asked for it.
Looking around, there's really no reason to stay here.
She's right, I deserve more.
Time to leave this place.

July 23.
I have no idea in the universe how I'm going to finish this thesis on time.
First of all, I get the barest feedback on my proposal except a distinction.
Then they sit on their hands for 2 months.
After that, supervisor keeps getting me to rewrite the proposal and the ethics forms.
There's 6 weeks left and I have no data at all.
What were they thinking ??

July 26.
So angry to fail this degree.
All because I wasn't lucky enough to find a professional network.
(To be born in one being more precise.)
Now what do I do with my stupid life.
World's my oyster. Well it is for others, not sure about me.

July 27.
So bored, so sick of drinking, so tired of the heat.
But well, that is July for you. Ha!

July 28th.
Today was eventful.
Had two viewings. One was fine, the other on the 2nd flr and no lift - no thanks.
Bit the bullet on this guarantor stuff. Unfair imo but there's so little supply out here.
B, it's a nice town. Most of it at least. Some rough parts. Centre is pretty tho.
Cross with HMB. Wrote to VJ. They're talking about deferral. Least there are options.
Still angry about the ethics delays. 2 and a half months wasted.
Job starts tomorrow. Well it was supposed to start today yet they didn't tell me!
Ah they were fine about it. Bought some new clothes to prepare. Sure it will go well.

July 31st.
Had a viewing, nice place but was approached by a prostitute on the same street, yeah nah.
Job is going ok. Pretty basic stuff.
Uni has agreed to drag out this final project.
Started in 2023, graduating in 2026, people must be sick of my face.

August 7th.
Things are going great. Even if they are a bit rocky!
New job is fine. Dislike coming back to FM but pays good, lots to do and nice team.
Might have found a new place too. Lots of space especially the kitchen. Feel spoilt.
Could fight the eviction out but I got my licks in. And with the thesis extension, no point now.
Still chipping away at that - lots of reading to do. Went to the gym on Wednesday too.
Did some reading by the waterfront in the evening. Felt like crying that there's some hope.
Like the Rockwell paintings. Freedom from want and freedom from fear.

August 12th.
Why would one ship of fools be different from the next?
Only myself to blame.

August 13th.
Yet another heatwave. This shit pisses me off.
AM liked my input in the lecture today though. Always nice to get constructive criticism.
The next few weeks are going to be me doing.. whatever it is I bloody well can I suppose!

August 18th.
Went to the beach this week, caught the sun. Walked in the sea for a while.
No idea what's happening with these referencing and I've given up caring.

August 19th.
Had another interview today.
Went fine but there's so much competition, lucky I was even shortlisted.
Until then, back on the hunt.. again.
Glad I have no one around me, feel embarrassed with myself.

August 23rd.
Bored as piss these days.
Got the job which was great. But they screwed up with the times.
Need to find a new place soon too, poking around on the market.
New deftones album is good tho.

August 26th.
These flats are hideous. Only looking at them for something to do, really.
And yet another heatwave. Just fantastic.
Can only wait until work starts.

August 30th.
Summer is finally over. This season seems to have gone on forever.
The apartment hunting goes. There's a place I want but the agent is so flakey.
Another one looks workable - landlord rubs me up the wrong way though.
Area is dead too. It's like a ghost town. My instincts are a little spooked.
Reminds me of Silent Hill. Or worse - Stoke-on-Trent. I think I'll pass.
It's important to pick the right place. I want to stick at this new job.
Can't wait for it to start so I can make some money too.
This company really means something to me. Always wanted to work in finance.
Of course with my luck being the bitch that it is my hopes are not too high.
But whatever. I've learned it's not up to you to win. Just to try your best.
And finally the heatwaves are over and the rain is back.


End of summer.




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