Spring 2025.


March 10.
It's Spring. I came to work for my shift but forgot I was not on the rota.
Walking down, it was easy to tell the winter is now behind.
Strange to think, it felt so long.
The week ahead looks difficult. So I have to prepare.

March 11.
Today I called in sick.
It is not illness but exhaustion.
Felt like I was going to pass out in the library.
Going to get some rest.

March 13.
Still exhausted but could not miss Sayeem's lectures.
His are by far the best on the course.
But these shifts, and coursework, it's becoming too hard.
Chloe has offered a solution to change my shift pattern.
That really helps.
My group presentation, well what do you know. Nobody has done much. Surprise surprise.
Took tomorrow off. Got a few days to rest.
And you know, I really need to rest.
It's not about being all tuckered out. It's something else.

March 19.
Had a few days off. Then, two crappy days at work.
Well today was an amazing day.
Our class, well what's left of it, went down to the museum and saw an exhibition.
Then me, Hui and Martin hung out in the SLB.
There was some free food being handed out, I had some lamb wrap, was lush.
We couldn't stop talking. We make a good bunch of friends.
Then I finished that marketing draft, thank god, at least.
And finally work paid me that bonus, and my shift wasn't even that bad.
Could not ask for more. Looking forward to more awesome days.

March 21.
Quit the job.
I can't remember the last time I felt so released, happy and..
Tired. Going to sleep for weeks.

March 26.
Still not recovered and won't be for some time.
What a horrible place to work. C was not expecting what I had to say.
Fine for cash and classes will end soon, I can go wherever I want now.
Time for a long rest. Maybe back to work in May or.. whenever.

March 31.
The weather is comfortable, it's getting warmer and brighter.
Doing well on my modules. The presentation was fun.
Except this proposal though. May have to get some help.
Had a dream when H pushed me away for someone else.
Might tell her that haha.

April 10.
The spring weather is warm. Easy to forget that it was just winter.
Classes have finished now. They'll allocate someone for the thesis, but it still makes me feel sad.
I'm hoping H can be my supervisor. That would be cool.
Been a stinking drunk for the last 2 weeks. At some point I'm going to have to find another job.
Been working on my CV, preparing for interview talks, gathering leads, it won't be too difficult.
Have to rationalise how that last job ended. What a mess, thanks C.
At least I have a lot of ammunition about that. Jesus christ.

April 20.
Coursework is going ahead great.
Which is just as well, because there's barely a week left.
Just need to get it checked out and job is done.
Going back on the job market.
Not having a job is boring and lonely, and also financially detrimental.
All I do these days is drink.
Lots of nonsense again with the flat.
I honestly cannot wait to get out of that hellhole.
Not long now thankfully.

April 22.
Life has just gone from dull to fucking crazy.
Constantly behind assignments. Every time I think I'm finished another task pops up.
Can't seem to find work anywhere. Rather worrying.
Rowing with the landlord over this gym business.
Going to AA meetings just to have something to do.
All I can say is jesus fucking christ.

April 23.
Coursework looks so much better now. 6 days left for submission.
Work isn't looking great, but a few more leads popping up.
Don't have endless cash. Yet who said this was going to be easy?
Absolutely furious with this bastard landlord trying to make it seem like he was doing me a favour.
He's done nothing but lie. Well I'll still try and save his bacon.

April 25.
Submitted my assignments and getting some luck with finding work.
Was writing a personal statement, pretty impressed with myself.
Got a call from Brook Street and Reed. This passport thing, ugh.
So grateful that my tutor could help me out.
Made it clear to Z that I'm not moving out. That gym has been illegal the whole time.
If he wants to kick me out fine. I am just done with the whole thing now.







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